Oh Mama!

Well, it looks like the glitch with the blog e-mail deliveries has been ironed out, and everyone in the US should be getting the latest posts the evening of the day that they are published.  Whew!!!  Nipped by the Technosphere once again!  It took some doing, but I figured out what had gone amiss.

The post today is part one of a two parter, as the subject is pretty broad.  In my healing practice and also occasionally amongst my friends, the issue of the behaviors that are a result of non-bonding with one’s mother comes up fairly frequently.  In psychological terms, the primary parent is always the mother, even if a person never knew their birth mother, as in cases of adoption.   Bonding starts with mother in the womb and continues through shortly after the moment of birth.  As one gets older, mom’s behaviors, attitudes, appearance and beliefs are modeled to a certain extent for the positive or the negative.  With dad, I always say that there can be a lot of modeling, but the same bonding as it happens with mom is not possible.   Mom as the primary parent is always the dominant influence in one's life. 

The key phrase here is “in the womb and continues through shortly after the moment of birth”.  The most important time frame regarding bonding is immediately after birth.  There is a delicate window of opportunity right after the baby is born, and if too much time goes by, bonding does not occur. 

A whole host of events can create a lack of bonding between mother and baby.  There are medical situations that come up such as premature, violent or caesarian births that literally prevent the mother from physically holding and uniting with the baby right after birth.  This is because mom is either unconscious via drugs or injury, or the baby may need immediate medical care and is whisked away before mom can hold her, as is the case for premature babies put into an incubator.  I have worked with one preemie adult who must have imprinted strongly on that clear glass incubator because that imagery and symbology came up many times during her sessions.  Imagine being an adult still stuck energetically in that sterile atmosphere deprived for the most part of human contact.  No one’s fault here, as I have said many times, there are no victims and what happens to each is a part of their soul’s plan for this lifetime.   

Many clients I have worked with were rejected in the womb.  Not that the mother doesn’t accept and love the baby once she is born, but it is always mom’s very first reaction to finding out that she is pregnant that gets energetically imbedded in the fetus. The reaction could be denial, anger, distress of any kind, or even thoughts of not carrying through with the pregnancy.  What about programming the fetus with thoughts of being unwanted and that they will be adopted out immediately after birth.  No wonder there is a higher rate of alcohol and drug abuse and incarceration amongst adopted people. 

Mom does not even need to be a single woman for this to happen, as a pregnancy within a marriage can be unwanted, too.  I see plenty of this.  There may already be too many children in the family, too small of an age gap between the new baby and the next youngest child, or mom is just not ready to have a child at that time for a variety of reasons.   These children, even as adults, suspect that they were an “oops”, and I am always amazed by the number of clients in this situation that were told so by their mothers!  And not in a nice way, either. 

I could go on and on with a variety of circumstances, but you get the idea.  You may even be one of the “un-bonded”.  The events that I have been describing have all happened at the pre-verbal stage of development and are hidden in one's shadow.  They cannot be known directly, only indirectly by the ways that one deals with the world.

Because the Earth Mother is an archetype, or larger representation for our human mothers, those who have bonding issues are almost always ungrounded and out of their bodies.  They either are afraid of trusting their connection with the earth, or simply don’t know how to go about connecting with the Heart of our Mother.  They draw a big blank here.  The down side of not being grounded and in the body is that the person is not able to dump energetic toxins into the earth core where they can be combusted.  These energetic toxins build up in the body contributing to full body ailments such as arthritis, autoimmune diseases, chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia, and overwhelming emotional states such as anger and depression.  We literally need the connection with “Big Mama” for our health and well being. 

These people have difficulties bonding with others in relationships; again because this ability was not imprinted on them from the get go.  There is also a lifelong drive to get all of their needs satisfied externally, because with no bonding, they never learned to bond with themselves to connect internally for guidance, self love and self support.  They go through life looking for that next fix, that one person who will be their “all”, the next class or psychic to provide them with the answers.   This contributes to addictions of all kinds, including to foods and drugs, possessions, people, fame, and money to name a few.  The externals can be taken away in a heartbeat, and then what is one left with if there is no inner connection? 

Have you ever met a person who is only interested in talking about themselves?  Whose opinion is the only one that matters, and who is always right?  “Enough about me, now let’s talk about me!” I know a few of those.  There is no arguing with them, so I either disengage, or politely nod and agree to keep the peace.  I guess it all depends on how much one is invested in that particular relationship.  After a while it does get tiresome, but I do understand where this behavior is coming from, so I cut them some slack (most of the time).  If you do have a good sense of who you are in the world and a solid inner connection with your guidance, it ultimately doesn’t matter what the other person says because you know what’s true for you. 

At this point, you may have a sense if you are one of the un-bonded ones.  In the next post, I will lay out the advice that I give to my clients to help them shift this pattern.  It is not easy and requires a lot of work, but it can be done.  Until then. 

A Glitch

It seems that there has been a glitch in the e-mailing of the blog posts since the beginning of October.  I do not know how many subscribers have been affected, or if it is everyone.  I receive the posts via e-mail just to keep tabs on them and was able to resubscribe without a problem.  I have heard from several people that when they tried to do that, a message came up that said that they were already subscribers. 

Google runs this whole operation, so I trust that they will straighten it out eventually.  As is now widely known, Google has been allowing the NSA access to all of its customer’s information.  In some wild moments of fantasy I started thinking that I have become a threat to national security and that the blog is being restricted.  Ha!!!  I don’t think so as the posts are still getting posted. 

If we look at the bigger picture with all of this, I can see how these types of technological glitches will become more and more common in relation to many aspects of day to day life.  We can no longer take for granted that technology will do things automatically and correctly.  In a way this is a good thing, as it will require us to reengage with so much of the minutia of life that up until now has been taken care of for us.  We will have to slow down and pay closer attention to what is going on. 

Glitches do happen.  I have been paying my garbage pickup bill through automatic withdrawals from my checking account.  Last month, I got a statement in the mail and just thought that my automatic withdrawal plan had been discontinued.  I paid the bill only to find that the automatic withdrawal had happened, too.   Both payments got recorded and so now I have a credit, but there may be many people who would ignore the whole business and not check up on things. 

This also brings me to the subject of the “Technosphere”, which is the energetic matrix of technology and electronics that now surrounds the earth.  It is a marvelous creation that has made life easier for many in many ways, but there is a down side to it, too.  We live in a world of polarity so this electronic matrix will have its pluses and minuses.   Each person has to weigh the personal advantages and disadvantages of how and how much they will engage in the Technosphere. 

So until this issue is corrected by Google, please continue to check the blog for new posts.  If I go out of town, I always post some kind of heads up.  Perhaps this post will get e-mailed out as always, and the problem is solved.  If not, just know that I highly value the support of everyone who takes the time to read what I have written here.  Blessings to you all. 

October Launch

Our launching group got together yesterday for our regular activities.  We always spend some time catching up and discussing what’s going on energetically in the world before getting down to the actual launch.  We have also noticed that in the last few months’ launchings, we seem to be moving forward faster in the types of experiences we are having in addition to the quality of energy we are accessing. 

I launched at the end of the lineup and got to observe what was going on with everyone else as they were “out there”.  Usually, we all try to track what the launchee is experiencing and compare notes afterwards, but this time, I noticed a lot going on with each person’s physical body.  It looked a little bit different for each person, but my distinct impression was that we were all being healed, repatterned, downloaded or upgraded with higher dimensional codes and information.  I had never seen that before with our group.  This is yet another sign that we (humanity) are being prepared for the upcoming leap in consciousness evolution. 

The other launchers also checked each other's Luminous Energy Fields before and after the launch and found that not only were they more dissolved than they had been at our last launching, but they had dissolved even more when tested at the end of yesterday’s launch.  This is a slow process compared to my LEF break up in Egypt last year, but it is happening all the same. 

As always, each person should have an intent for their launch.  Mine was to access energy and information that would serve me in the acceleration to come.  As I was expanding upwards after being launched by the group I sensed the presence of other beings accompanying me.  They felt like aspects of myself, or my oversoul, and became more numerous as we went along.  Then at some point, we all merged into a single body of light. 

I then found my conscious essence inside the Aperture that I wrote about in the Great Emitter post.  This journey really linked in and proceeded from where I left off at TMI!  This also shows you what you can do if you put some sort of marker at a location that you would like to visit again.  It’s much easier to go right there if you have a map!

              

The “Godhead” or Creator Being of our universe was in the Aperture waiting for me.  Time for the launch must have been growing short, as the Creator simply handed me a glass of a very interesting blue liquid which I drank shortly before the call back process began and I returned to my body.  The blue color is so hard to describe even though it keeps coming up in various ways in my journeys.  It is a pale electric blue which has movement, sparkle and depth, and is very multidimensional at the same time.  If I ever find a good representation of it, I will post it.  There may be a lava lamp out there that has that particular blue in it.

After coming back, I was launched again, and this time went immediately back to the Aperture.  In that space there was now a large clear glass tank filled with the blue energy.  The Creator invited me to get in, and I just passed through the wall of the tank and immersed myself in that cosmic blue liquid.  It permeated every bit of my consciousness.  Then the Creator stepped towards me, floated through the side of the container and merged with me.  I became that being, the part of me that has generated all of my embodiments throughout all of the dimensions below that one.  Once again I had the sensation of being in 2 places at once—the “I here” on planet earth and the “I there” that resides in the Aperture. 

I could feel my body in the physical vibrating as I absorbed the patterning of the blue energy.  I was told that this imprinting holds the codes for the creation and the maintaining of form for of all the planets, stars, galaxies and everything else in our universe.  That makes perfect sense.  If we all have an aspect of ourselves at the Universal Creator level, we all hold those codes.  All we have to do is re-member that information and then own it and be it.  A tall order for some, but to complete our experiences here, ascend and eventually exit this universe, it is a necessary step. 

In addition to all of this, I saw that there is a creator being that is managing the multiverse, which is made up of many universes.  At some point in our evolution, an impulse will come from this being, through the Aperture and into this universe and all of the other universes at the same time.  What this will do and when this will happen, I haven’t a clue.  I then exited the blue energy tank and started the return to my body even before I heard the call back signal from the group. 

It is interesting to note that I have had a low grade slightly annoying headache since the launch and didn’t sleep well last night.  The headache is very unusual for me, and I can only surmise that this is a symptom of the integration from the launch.  I am now off to Zumba class to work it off!  Exercise always helps in the integration process. 

It's So Quiet

It’s been so quiet lately.  At least that’s the way it seems to me.  I am speaking of energetically and internally, but that is also reflected in the external environment as well.  Fall is here and the natural world is starting wind down for the winter months.  The birds have migrated and the last of the vegetables have been harvested out of the garden.  It’s a nice time of year to be out and about on a sunny day. 

Ever since the government shut down this week, the sense of quietude has been very pronounced. Could it be possible that the synthetic matrix programming that rules our government is having less of an effect on us during this shut down?  I live near Mesa Verde National Park, which of course has been closed along with all of the other national parks.  This has left hundreds of fall seasonal tourists and tour groups of all ages scrambling to make alternate plans, so the area is not quite as busy as it would be this time of year. 

Those who have removed their chakras routinely experience more inner peace and quiet as a result. Mine have been gone for about a year now and yet lately the inner quietude has noticeably deepened.  What a wonderful feeling.  Your outer world is always a manifestation of your inner state of being, so the inner is where the quiet would originate from.  Your outer life may be busy but I suspect that if you take the time to go within you may resonate with what I am sensing.

I decided to tune in to get some sense of what is happening.  Wow!!!  It seems that we are in a “pause” mode as we get ready for our next phase of acceleration.  I have been getting inklings of this for the last month or so, too.  My sense is that 2014 will be another doozy for individuals and the planet as well.  Comet ISON is already in our solar system, and there is no telling what its effects will be, as this will be the first time that it has come our way.  It will start becoming more visible as the weeks progress towards Thanksgiving. 

The Sun is also in the process of going through its once every 11 year magnetic pole reversal, which should be completed in the next few months.  That is bound to have an effect on the planet and all life here.  I can think of a whole host of events that could dynamically start our forward motion again, from global financial and political events, to large natural disasters, to something coming at us from outer space. Ultimately, there may be no way of predicting what events will occur that will start the acceleration moving forward or how dynamic that movement will be.

Here is a symbolic representation of what I got while tuning in to the upcoming energies for 2014.  Let’s say that you are a contestant on the TV game show “Let’s Make a Deal”.  Wayne Brady has just walked up to you and offered what is behind curtain #1.  But wait!  He has also offered what is behind curtains #2 and #3, in addition to what is inside any number of big fancy boxes that are up front.  How about what is behind an infinite number of doors?  Do you get to choose just one prize, or can you have several, or all of them?  And you only have one minute to decide!  Of course, some of the prizes will be duds, but you won’t know that until you actually pick that prize.   It’s pretty fun but confusing all at the same time.  This is what 2014 will be like once the “play” button is pushed. 

Will we get to make conscious choices as to where we will head once things are moving along again?  Maybe not from the “little self” point of view which may be frustrating for those who are used to running their lives from the needs and wants of the ego.  Keep in mind that our higher aspects have the bigger view on our lives, and are and have been making choices for us based on the plan for this lifetime.  Perhaps all we need to do is go with the flow, take life one step at a time, and have fun with whatever is waiting for us behind curtain number infinity!