End of Life Issues

Yesterday, I did some long distance catching up with a girlfriend in Virginia.  She is associated with the Monroe Institute, and the first topic that I brought up was the death of their executive director Carol de la Herran about a month ago.  Without going into specifics, here we had by all accounts a perfectly healthy woman who was very active with all facets of her job at TMI.  She fell ill with something that couldn’t be accurately diagnosed and passed away after 3 weeks in the ICU.  When something like this happens to someone you know personally, it naturally brings up issues of one’s own mortality.

My friend and I are both single with no children, so the conversation drifted to who would be “in charge” of our medical decisions when or if the time came.  We both have other girlfriends who have our medical power of attorney.  What about alternatives if things get too tough and we want to end it all?  In Holland, euthanasia is legal if the terminally ill patient is coherent enough to sign the papers and the doctor agrees.  Before modern medicine, death gardens were common in England.  Water hemlock, which is highly poisonous, was grown in a corner of the garden, and was used under the same circumstances.  It is a plant that can be found in swampy areas of the US, and I have even seen it growing in a few waterlogged roadside ditches here in Colorado. 

What about having a DNR order?  My mom had one and was almost resuscitated by the paramedics until they saw the sign on her refrigerator.  Apparently there are stickers that you can get to put up everywhere so that this kind of mistake does not happen.  As my sister and I both live in Colorado, and mom was in Chicago, we looked into getting Life Alert for her. She nixed the idea when she found out that if she were to have a medical emergency and had to push the button on the device, the company would call an ambulance and have her taken to the ER, no matter what the problem was.  Going to the ER was no longer something that she wanted to do at that point in her life.

I could go on and on, but the point is this.  Before birth, we set up a plan for our lives which included several exit points from the earthly plane so that we would not be forced to stay until the ultimate final exit.  People who have been gravely ill and recovered have probably hit one of their exit points.  Alternatively, suicide may be a way of using one of these exits before one’s final one.  

Since there are no victims, accidents or coincidences, whatever apparent goofiness that goes on at the time of death has also been planned.   Any pain or suffering on the part of the dying or those close to that person has a definite purpose that all have agreed upon.  According to my friend in Virginia, when Carol’s children tried to communicate with her in her unconscious state, somehow she was able to indicate to them that they were irritating her.  I have seen this over and over with seriously ill people that I have been asked to work with over the years.  Once one is in that final pipeline to the other side, nothing can divert them from their intended outcome.  There is no point in trying to save them or cure them.  Many may need support or reassurance, but that would be up to the individual circumstances. 

Let’s take a different perspective on the final transition by acknowledging that death is not the end but a transition to another state of being.  This must be more than just a mental concept.  One must embody this “belief” fully so that at the end of life there is trust that one is going to the other side to continue on with whatever their path of evolution may be.  The body may be in pain, but that is just the body’s response, not that of the soul or spirit. 

My ideal would be to see people reach a level of spiritual evolution where disease was no longer an issue, and as the time of transition approached, one would know it.  It would then be possible to create the circumstances of the transition, whether one would be surrounded by loved ones or alone in a quiet place.  The body would be dropped as if one was removing a garment.  I suspect that at the time of transition, all present would see a bright flash of light as the spirit was freed from the physical.  I know that this has happened to some saints, sages and avatars in the past and this may be in your life plan, too.   How wonderful that would be! 

Sorting Through Stuff

I didn’t sleep very well last night at all.  That is unusual for me unless something is going on in the ethers.  As it was, I had to get up at 5:30 AM to get ready to go into to Cortez to photograph the annual hot air balloon launch, and then on to Zumba at 8 AM.  The class had the poorest attendance out of all of the Fridays since the first of the year, and the ladies were also complaining of lethargy and general dopiness.  Join the club!  It could be because of the weather as we are into the monsoon and it is cloudy and more humid than we are used to, but I don’t think so.  Something is being stirred up.  Just look at all of the deadly train and bus crashes that took place in the last 10 days or so.  They could be a symptom of a “disturbance in the force!” 

When the sleep state is very light, as it was last night, dreamtime messages are also easier to grab on to.  I got a big one.  The message was that I have too much stuff.  Now, I am not a hoarder, and everything is put away in a neat and organized way.  The problem is that there is a fair amount that I have barely or never used.  I also tend to stock up, so there is more than enough copy paper, paper towels, kitty litter, condiments, underwear, shoes and bug spray to last for a good long time.  I am also learning how to make French macarons, so the freezer is full of those in addition to a bumper crop of green beans from the garden as a result of a good dose of horse manure.  Let’s hope that the power does not go out at an inauspicious time to cause my goodies to defrost. 

On a consciousness level, too much stuff, either material or mental, can create a big distraction and clog up the works.  This will be the project for the weekend and I plan to be brutal. All the excess will be given away or donated to a worthy cause.  As soon as I post this, I will start the sorting and clearing process.  Not the underwear, of course!  One can never have enough underwear.

Simplicity should be the order of the day.   I have finally quit the ballroom dancing and felt a sense of relief as soon as I made that decision.  Now if only I can find someone to take all of those dance shoes off my hands!!!

Person to Person Karma

My sister is coming for a visit next week and will be staying here for several days.  We are quite different, and mix like oil and water.  That alone shouldn’t cause difficulties if two people can get along, but that hasn‘t been the case with us.  I used to chalk it up to sibling rivalry on her part, (she is younger than I am, and there are just the 2 of us), but as adults, I’d like to think that something like that can be examined and healed.  It doesn’t take even 24 hours of togetherness until things turn sour, and it got particularly bad around the time our mother got sick and passed away.  Luckily, my sister’s ex husband will be visiting, too, and I think that he will prove to be a diffusing factor for the usual hoo dee hoo that breaks out.  It’s the proverbial fish starting to stink after two days!

Karma, or unfinished business from past lives, is what draws us together this time around.  Before birth, we made a plan with others to participate in each other’s lives for a variety of reasons and cleaning up old business is one of them.  If we don’t do this, we will have to try it again the next time around.  That unfinished stuff can keep us coming back on the wheel of reincarnation. 

On top of that, the closer the person is to us, the bigger the karma is that needs to be resolved.  That is why we can get along with friends or coworkers better than we can with our own family members or life partners.  One of the very valuable parts of the Quantum Sphere Healing protocol is working with person to person karma.  One does not need to reenact or act out the difficulties over and over again to resolve them, so this afternoon I sat down and did a QSH session on myself with the intention of resolving any remaining karma between my sister and myself. 

By using the QSH process, past lives can be viewed, understood from both positions and then dissolved. The subject of the healing session (the client) then embodies any appropriate positive qualities that would be a result of the understanding of the distortions that they have been carrying in regard to the issues with the other person.  In person to person karma, any appropriate past lives that the client shares with the person that they have been having difficulties will show up to be understood and worked with.

For this session, 3 problematic past lives with my sister showed up.  In the first one, we were married.  She was the wife and I was the husband.  For some reason, I had let her down as she kept throwing things at me and shrieking about not having enough of the finer things of life.  “Give me, give me, I want, I want…”  She expected me to provide her with wealth and position, and I could not stand up to her tirades.   Eventually I just left.  In the second past life, I was a much older sister and she was an infant.  I was supposed to be watching her, but at some point, she wandered off and drowned in a creek.  I watched her tiny body float away without any guilt or regrets.  In the third life, we were both men.  She (he) was an outlaw, and I was hung from a high place on a barn by her and her gang.  She was a criminal and I was an upstanding citizen.  She rode away on her horse feeling well satisfied by my death. 

There was also a family inherited curse that showed up dealing with women not being able to get along with other women, and an off planet agreement to come to planet Earth together and stay together.  Apparently, shortly after we both got here for the first time, I went off on my merry way leaving her to fend for herself.  Issues around abandonment were the result for her.  All of these patterns were dissolved and positive intents were put in their places.  Now, this was from my standpoint only, as she might have different viewpoints and issues with all of this.  Or not at all! 

Of course, there is more to it than what I have described.  I will be teaching the Quantum Sphere Healing in Atlanta from November 8-10, 2013.  The class is listed on my web site at QuantumStargate.com, and I will be sending out announcements as we get closer to the course date.  As far as what will happen next week, I am hopeful that all will go smoothly.  I also got some information that she has something to teach me, but I haven’t gotten it yet because of all of the interpersonal difficulties we have had.  Maybe I will get it sometime during her visit!   

The Neutral Zone

Yesterday I went over to our neighboring town of Mancos and did a float session in a sensory deprivation tank at a facility called Kaleidoscope Wellness.  This is something I indulge in every month or so during the warmer months.  The float session takes about 90 minutes. Not only is it very relaxing and good for the body, but it also puts one into an altered state of consciousness.  If you live in the Mancos/Cortez area, I highly recommend giving it a try. 

It usually takes a bit of time to get really relaxed once I am in the tank.  At that point, I just wait to see what comes up either as information that my guidance is sending to me or any insights into something that I need to pay attention to or process.  Sometimes I just zone out.  Yesterday I think that I fell asleep for a short bit, as I found myself snorting myself awake at one point.  We’ve all had that experience!  Not to worry, as I don’t think it is possible to drown in the tank for a variety of reasons. 

One can also set a specific intent for the session.  After the preliminaries were over, I asked my Higher Self what it would feel like to be merged with her in the 5^th Dimension, in other words, in the fully ascended state.

The first thing that was shown to me was what it would feel like leading up to that state.  I’d like to call this “the big squeeze” as it is what we are going through right now with the compression and acceleration.  There will be physical symptoms to some extent just before the transition which will depend on each individual’s levels of clarity and vibration.  I have never had a near death experience, but the physical sensations I was shown would probably feel like dying.  A lot of squeezing of the chest and difficulty breathing before the energy field detaches from the physical body and one pops through to the other side. 

Once on the other side of the great barrier that exists between the 4^th and 5^th dimensions, the merge with one’s Higher Self will occur.  So what does this feel like?  I found myself in a space of total neutrality, calmness and peace.  I have to make it clear that this is like the floaty no mind state that most people achieve in the float tank, but it is also very different in many respects.

Our Higher Selves exist in a realm where there is no time and space as we understand it, and polarity is nonexistent there.  There are no issues, opinions, desires, goals, illnesses, dramas, dissatisfactions or attachments to name a few.  There is no right or wrong, and just being is all one has to do.  For now, I will just call this the neutral zone. 

So I started contemplating on how one can achieve this while still focused in the 3^rd and 4^th dimensions, as we all are.  The key is to examine every polarity that you are involved in and resolve the back and forth of each issue. The center point is the goal here, as once the positive and negatives have been resolved and one is in a neutral place in regard to that particular issue, true transcendence is achieved.  Instead of going back and forth, one rises above.  This is very similar to how one transcends the toxic triangle. 

I spent the rest of my float feeling the feeling of being in the neutral zone.  This is more than a mental understanding, as the cellular memory of the body needs to get it, too.  That way, you will know when you are in the zone and neutral or out of the zone when there is something out of balance that needs to be addressed.  To top off my afternoon, after the float I paid a visit to a nature preserve south of Cortez where I photographed a very special cactus that was in bloom and then had a Heath Bar Blizzard at the Dairy Queen.  Wow!!!!

Beliefs

I was having lunch with a friend yesterday, and he told me that he had been sensing a lot of disturbed emotional flows in the energy around him for the past week or so.   He wanted to know if I had noticed anything similar.  I said that I hadn’t and that life was pretty calm and balanced.  Right away, I said that it must be because he still had his chakras.  Chakras are designed to funnel programming from the synthetic realities into the human energy field to keep people weighed down with heavy emotions and drama.   In my shamanic training, we were also taught that they are gravity wells that collect heavy energy, although that teaching only referred to retaining one’s own heavy energy that was generated by one’s own patterning and traumas, not heavy energy being sent our way from an external source.  Please refer to the chakra removal post for information on how to do this. 

My friend, who does a fair bit of astrology, proceeded to talk about some planetary alignments in water signs that have been affecting the planet, and that may be why emotions were running stronger now.  I have pretty much released astrology as a belief system for myself, and did not get into that discussion with him.  Ever since I came to the realization that astrology is part organic and part synthetic, it has lost its relevance in my life. The last two Mercury retrogrades were non events, whereas before my epiphany, these several times a year events were negatively anticipated and analyzed afterwards to determine how disruptive they really were. 

My point here is, do we have a reaction according to what we believe will happen, or does something happen and then we form our belief.  Depending on the circumstances, it can be either.  I am more interested in the beliefs imposed on us that do not allow for our own inner knowingness to take precedence. Check everything out with your inner radar system.  Take nothing for granted.  Matrix programming beliefs in the negative polarity will be restricting, controlling, disempowering and will not allow for that inner guidance to help direct you. 

There is a positive polarity to the matrix programming, too.  I guess the best way to put that is if it seems too good to be true, it probably is.  We are used to so much negativity and struggle in our world that we would be more than happy to grab onto any life raft sent our way without checking it out first.  Remember that we are dealing with polarity here.  The negative and the positive are all a part of the same issue.  The goal is to transcend that issue, and in this case, we are transcending the synthetic programming. 

Just ignoring it may not do the trick either.  My sense is that to transcend it, we need to engage it and understand it first.  What relevance does any belief system have for you personally?  Where did that belief come from?  Look at it with a clear eye and go within for your guidance.  Once you do that, you will find that the belief will be easy to let go of.