June 16, 2019

A Highly Sensitive Person

Yes, that’s me.  I never realized that my difficulties with crowds and family holiday gatherings were because I fell into the “highly sensitive category”.  I always thought that I was being unreasonable and difficult if I wanted to leave an event early.  Then I discovered a book entitled “The Highly Sensitive Person” by Elaine Aron.  About 15-20% of the population is in the highly sensitive category, and the majority of my clients are also highly sensitive.  With my students, the percentage is higher than in the general population, but not as high as with my clients. 

The major issue with a highly sensitive person is that they tend to get over stimulated easily.  This might happen in social gatherings or at work, interactions with verbally or energetically aggressive people, loud sounds or lights, or even some medications.  I always said that I could get high on an aspirin!  They then develop unhealthy and non productive behaviors to cope with that overstimulation.  This might involve numbing out with drugs or alcohol, having anger issues, or even withdrawing from society altogether.   If you suspect that you might be in this category, you can take a test on the internet here.  Then if you are a highly sensitive, I recommend that you get the book if you don’t have it already. 

The reason I am bringing this up now is that I have hit a major snafu with my Controlled Remote Viewing training.  I started my training with Lori Williams last December.  She teaches Lyn Buchanan’s CRV protocol.  With the holidays and all, I didn’t start working targets until early January.  It was then that I realized that the training was not really good.  It is all on line. Even if you take the courses in person, which I did twice, there is no one-on-one personal work with Lori.  It is hard to even get questions answered. 

When I realized that the training wasn’t the way it should be, I tried to switch to another of Lyn’s instructors, also on line only, but she was booked up and couldn’t take me.  So I went through the 3 courses and did a lot of research to try and fill in the blanks.  At that point, the other instructor was able to take me for tutoring to help fill in the blanks.

Here is where the trouble started.  Even thought I gave her a specific list of the basics that I needed help with, after a few very productive sessions, she began to give me some pretty advanced techniques to learn.  The problem was that with a still shaky foundation in the work, I wasn’t getting it.  This is where the over stimulation came into play.  I was not able to adequately integrate the new techniques, and they began to pile up on me.  My stress levels started to rise, and I totally screwed up that week’s homework target.  Crash!!!  I think that I cried off and on for about a week before telling that instructor that her methods weren’t working for me, and I had to discontinue working with her.  I had really been thrown off of my game, and it took that whole week to recover. 

It had been so so very long since I got myself into an overstimulation situation.  Years in fact!  Being highly sensitive is not something that ever goes away, or can be healed out of you.  It is a matter of creating a lifestyle that is harmonious with that trait, which I have done.  Even with all of the years of teaching workshops, and traveling through crowded airports and foreign countries, I never got overstimulated, so this took me by surprise. 

What have I done with my CRV training?  I am still very passionate about learning this, and even in spite of the difficulties, I have done much better at it than the majority of Lori’s students.  I will be starting over with my third instructor in mid-August.  It is a different method, and will be in person with only one other student.  I will not name names now, but will divulge that information after I have been to the first class.  Hoping that the third time will be the charm!  If any of you are considering CRV training, please get in touch and we can talk about all of the options available. 

BTW—the photo above was taken from my yard this morning.  As I crossed to the back of the yard to catch this shot, my outdoor cat Mr. Snowflake followed me and started yelling!  Really loud.  I think he was hungry. 

June 14, 2019

What a Difference a Year Makes

As regular readers of this blog will recall, my area of the southwest United States was in an extreme drought last year.  Everything was dry, and a lot of the spring wildflowers didn’t even come up or bloom.  Now we have the totally opposite situation, where there has been a big excess of moisture in the form of snow falling in the local mountains over the winter.  In fact, there is still so much of it to be seen, that problems are starting to arise.

We are having our typical warm June weather, so the snow is melting very fast.  Our local river, the Dolores, has hit flood stage and may start breaching its banks.  Normally, I would be hiking up in the mountains at the 10,000 foot elevation level by now, but I thought I’d try a lower elevation hike yesterday just to see what the conditions were like. 

After the hike, I stopped at the Rico Forest Service Office to inquire about conditions at higher elevations, and was told that most of the smaller roads and trails are still snow covered and impassible, with many trees that have fallen onto the roads and trails.  It will take a lot of man power to clear those trees, and the snow will just have to melt on its own.  In addition to that, a lot of the hiking trails have turned into creek beds with running water from the melting snow.  Not my preferred way to hike!

So, my hike took me up the Horse Creek Trail, which is just north of Rico, Colorado.  It involves about an hour’s hike up a road, and then continuing on a foot path from there.  Below are some photos from yesterday’s hike.

This photo is looking back down the trail.  You can see a bit of the road on the left.  What looks like a big snow bank is  actually the remains of the winter snow piled up over the Horse Creek creek bed. 

Here is a photo looking at the spot where the creek emerges from underneath the snow bank.
Looking up the trail with the hiking road.
The next 2 photos show the debris from an avalanche that came down a side creek, blocking the road.  If you look carefully, you can see a waterfall in the distance.

Snow on the road.
Snow on the foot path blocking further passage.
A side creek coming out of a snow cave.

June 13, 2019

Prickly Pear Cactus

Yesterday, I needed to go into town to do some errands, and took the opportunity to visit a local nature preserve to see what might be blooming.  What a delightful surprise to find prickly pear cactus in full bloom!  The colors ranged from pale lemon to a golden yellow, all shades of pink from pale to fuchsia, and even some light orange or apricot color.  I was wearing sandals, so I had to pick my way very carefully between the cactus plants, and and at the same time, keeping an eye out for a possible snake encounter.  Below are some of the best blooms.  My next post will feature what I encountered hiking part way up into the mountains today. 

May 28, 2019

The Battle Between the Subby and the President

And, no, I do not mean Donald Trump!  In Controlled Remote Viewing lingo, the Subby is the subconscious mind, and the President is the conscious mind. 

The goal of working an operational CRV target is to find something that is hidden or that has an unknown aspect to it.  Operational targets are real time, here and now targets that a client needs to have investigated.  Of course, before a viewer gets to the stage where he or she is proficient enough in CRV to do a good job with that, a lot of time and energy is devoted to training. 

The subconscious mind is always connected to what I call the Quantum Field, or perhaps the Akashic Records, or All That Is.  This is a field of energy that contains all information, and is accessed through the CRV process to retrieve the required information.  The problem is that this information is not in concrete form, and is more in the form of energy flows, intuitions, sensations and feelings.  To put the retrieved information into a comprehensible form, the Subby needs a translator and a recorder.  That is the job of the conscious mind, or the President.

Normally, the Subby is asked by the viewer to retrieve a certain piece of information related to the target being viewed, generally in a simple form such as one or two words, and then the President is in charge of writing the words down on paper.  Sounds simple, right? 

Here is where the major difficulty arises with this kind of work, and believe me, I struggle with this each time I work a target.  The President always wants to be in charge and rarely wants to give up control.  I have said many times that our rational mind can spin a great story that may not even have a shred of truth to it.  This is the down side of advanced human consciousness, where our rational mind has developed to the extent that it is the master of our thoughts instead of a tool to be used only when necessary.   We have sublimated the intuitive right brain part of ourselves so much that we are no longer guided by the part of our consciousness that is connected to everything. 

The standard rule for CRV is “describe, don’t interpret”, which is also what I teach my healership students.  But how do we know if what we are perceiving is true or not?  There are subtle emotional sensations that alert me to when the President has started to spin its own version of the target, and the trick is to catch on to those signals before everything gets really off track. 

There is a lesson here for everyone.  Learn to listen to the subtle signals that your own Subby sends you every day.  This is the source of guidance that we all need to negotiate through this crazy and chaotic life.  Do not let your rational mind manipulate the facts or spin a story that may not be true.  Settle down, tune in and listen. 

May 20, 2019

The Bubble

This post is a continuation of the last post on “The Dome”.  We had our monthly launching today, and that is always a great opportunity to do some enlightening spiritual work! 

So my intent for the launch was to delve deeper into what I experienced a few days ago.  During that experience, it was a dome that was expanding over my body.  Upon launching, I experienced the dome actually becoming a bubble of energy that enclosed my whole energy field.  This bubble had a very thin and fragile skin, much like a soap bubble.

As I floated up and out, it was like having my own personal organic space ship.  I am also thinking that I may have become one of the orbs that many people can see. 

I then journeyed through the density of all of the patterns that exist in the 4th dimension.  The bubble served as a barrier to prevent interaction with all of these structures, distractions and patterns.  The first destination upon leaving the body at the time of death is to exit the 4th dimensional matrix altogether, which I then did.  The bubble helps facilitate this. 

I eventually exited our universe, and then became the universe!  Perhaps all universes have a border that is like the skin of this bubble. 

At the end of the journey, I found myself immersed up to my neck in a huge body of liquid, like water or perhaps liquid crystal.  The horizon stretched to infinity in all directions, with no shoreline in sight.  I floated effortlessly and then started to swim around below the surface when my group called me back. 

Even as I write this, I feel like something within me has changed energetically.  Perhaps a further preparation for my ultimate death experience.

May 17, 2019

The Dome

I had an interesting occurrence last night that I’d like to share.  First, I’d like to start by explaining that I haven’t been posting much lately due to a very busy schedule.  I have been doing some extra on-line Controlled Remote Viewing training with Coleen Marenich who lives in Canada.  That has been intense to say the least!  This past weekend was our annual birding festival here in Cortez, which I attended.  On top of which, because of all of the moisture we have been having this year, the wildflowers have been going crazy, and I have been out photographing them.  Needless to say, I have been a bit fried with all of the goings on here.

So last night, I was pretty tired when I went to bed.  For all of us, there is an in between time between waking and sleeping in the morning and evening which is when the veils between the conscious and unconscious realms are the thinnest.  It is at these times that we can become more aware of what is going on in the non-physical realms if we pay attention.  These are very fleeting observations that may only last less than a second.  They are also harder to recall later. 

I was watching a TV show right before bed that involved a big ambulance crash in its final scene.  Several people were killed, but that is also a cliff hanger that will have to wait for the next season to start back up in the fall.  I was a bit preoccupied with all of that when I went to bed.  As I lay there on my back, I started to detect a clear dome forming above my heart and chest area, and connecting down to the bed.  That was something new.  It was expanding much like a balloon as it formed.  I was fascinated.

The interesting thing about this was the feelings I had as this was happening.  It felt so very nice and comforting, even ecstatic, and there was also the sensation of being pulled out of my body into the dome.  I remember hearing the words “This is what it will feel like when you die.”  Whoa!!  That is when I returned to waking consciousness, and probably why I remembered the incident clearly. 

Now, this wasn’t an out of body event, as those are usually accompanied by loud sounds, a loud pop as the astral body disconnects, and often feelings of fear or apprehension.  Last night, there were none of those.  The whole thing felt so comfortable and reassuring.

Needless to say, I stayed awake for a bit pondering this experience.  Was it caused by watching the TV show with the crash so close to bed time?  Was it a portent of my coming demise?  Was it a message from my Higher Self?  Was I being shown still another step in the preparation for leaving this planet and lifetime for good in the future?  Under the right circumstances, I probably would have happily allowed myself to be pulled out of my body and into the dome.  If this is how our final moments will be, there is nothing to fear, as dying is certainly much easier than being born into this physical world.  There is also the matter of some type of ET interference that may have been going on, but I have never been bothered by that in the past, so I dismissed the idea. 

Today, I am still feeling the effects of that event, and that I have been changed somehow.  Who knows what related activity may have gone on later overnight when I was dead asleep.  More may be revealed in the future.