A Blank Slate

Are you a blank slate?  This theme has come up with several clients in the past few weeks.  I define a person as a blank slate when they do not project a strong enough energy field or persona that other people can read when making decisions on how to interact with them.  It is a natural human tendency to want to fill a vacuum.  When you are perceived as a blank slate, others naturally want to write on you! 

If you are a blank slate, you may find that you are misperceived, misunderstood, often told what to do, ignored or overlooked, or even accused of lying about something that you never even said.  Others will either view you as invisible or react with the other end of the spectrum by overlaying onto you their perceptions of who they think you are.  How very frustrating, especially if you have an inkling of how you want things to go and never achieve your desired result.  By the way, children for the most part are all blank slates from birth.  A whole host of distortions can occur within the family unit if mom or dad insist on writing on that blank slate in an unhealthy way.  The effects of that can last a lifetime!

In order for you not to be a blank slate for others to write on, several factors must come into play.   A strong persona must be projected energetically.  This has nothing to do with the words that are coming out of your mouth.  One can insist and insist and still not be heard or acknowledged.

The strong persona comes from knowing who you are at your core.  By this, I mean that you are embodying your healed and healthy inner state.  It means living a life of integrity.  If you are projecting your unhealed and wounded self, others will walk all over you.  This healing takes time and deep introspection, and also the willingness to speak up from your core truth when called to do so.  If this is not attended to, the result is a lot of confusion as to who you are in the world.  Others will take advantage of that.  So many of my clients have a lot of difficulty coming up with an issue for their healing session because they truly do not know who they are.  It can be a challenge for me at the start of the session not to interpret their issues for them, as that is not my job. 

One way to beef up your core identity is by making appropriate decisions when needing to make a choice.  Make all choices from a state of integrity and not a state of woundedness.  Say what you mean and mean what you say, and stick with your choice.  This is a very symbiotic exercise, as by making appropriate choices, your core identity will be strengthened.  At the same time, your stronger core will help you generate more appropriate choices.  They go hand in hand.  It goes without saying that a good connection to your higher guidance can help to direct these choices.  Also, pay attention to the decisions that are driven by your inner woundedness.  “I want this and I want that.”   Funny that I am writing this the day after Black Friday, where the wants of the ego reign supreme.  Black Friday has become a 3 day weekend affair, and has even oozed over into the UK! 

Most importantly, for others to acknowledge who you truly are and react appropriately to your energy, they must perceive it strongly.  This is strictly an energetic state which does not depend on the words coming out of your mouth.  It is something that you embody.  As you engage in deep introspection and make contact with and heal your wounded parts, your vibration naturally goes up and your core naturally expands.  Others will read this as your firm identity and will not feel the need to overwrite you.  They will know where you are coming from at all times.  You will not be messed with as much, if at all, by either humans or negative entities. 

I do believe that we as humanity are coming to a crescendo here on the planet.  There is an event on the horizon where we will be greatly challenged in many ways.  George Kavassilas and Robert Monroe have spoken of this in addition to many others.  When this time comes, we need to be firm in our core identities so as not to fall into someone else’s agenda for us.  This will be a great challenge for many, and many will not succeed in hanging on to who they are.  I encourage each of you reading this to continue your inner work and the clarification of who you are.  Be congruent, which means being the same on the inside as you are on the outside.  What you see is what you get.  Walk your talk and be a force to be reckoned with at all times!    

Happy Thanksgiving

Tomorrow, Thursday, is Thanksgiving Day here in the US.  I just wanted to take this opportunity to express my total gratitude and appreciation for those of you everywhere who have been reading this blog.  Knowing that someone, somewhere, is paying attention to my words of wisdom keeps me forging ahead with this endeavor.  As you can imagine, many many hours have gone into these writings, but the effort is well worth the time it takes.  Sending blessings to all! 

Evading the Traps

Our group had our November launching this morning, with another really wonderful time of sharing and spiritual exploration.  We’ve started rotating around amongst the member’s houses to share the responsibility of preparing the space for the group.  It was very nice for me to be able to just show up at someone else's house for a change!  A common theme amongst us always formulates when we compare notes from our journeys.  Today there was a lot of dumping of energetic baggage to be had in addition to quite a few higher dimensional beings accompanying each of us.  These are the helpers that everyone has but who do not come close to the earthly plane.  We have to raise our vibration to meet them on their own turf.

More and more I am coming to realize that all of the drama and trauma that is being created on the planet serves as a massive trap that is designed to keep us stuck here.  We get terribly distracted in addition to losing energy to our attachment to what is going on.  I am not recommending the total avoidance of engaging and just sitting back and observing, as we do evolve through how deeply we can engage with the people around us and our immediate surroundings. But certainly, pick your battles very carefully, as you can get entrapped and mired down in something that is not yours to deal with.  The focus on your personal issues is always the best path to follow.

That being said, my intent for my launch was to receive information on how to avoid all of the 4^th dimensional traps when the time for completion and graduation occurs.  Also, what will happen during the completion journey?  I have written on this topic quite a few times, but the information is still coming in in bits and pieces. The whole process is very simple yet complicated at the same time, as there are many viewpoints to cover.  To read about the Earth Mother’s transformation, you can read my post entitled “Implosion”. 

As soon as I lay down to be launched, I could see a faraway pinpoint of light in my mind’s eye.  It turned out that this was the stargate at the center of the Milky Way Galaxy.  I would end up there today, but not before some other things happened in my journey. 

When I was launched, I instead found myself traveling down into the earth core, or the heart of our Earth Mother.  This is where I found many other beings congregating as we all merged into her energy field.  Many times, I have received the information that to avoid getting stuck in the 4^th dimensional traps that are put in place to keep a person in the reincarnational cycle, one had to go around and not through 4D.  So it looks like this is how to do it—go directly to the 5^th dimensional heart of the planet thus avoiding the 4^th dimension all together.  If one is firmly anchored to the earth core with their grounding cord and has raised their vibrational level via expanding their core essence to match her vibration, that should not be a problem. 

Then the group energy body that consisted of the 5^th dimensional heart core of our planet and the energetic essence of those of us who had just joined with her formed what I would call a large body of light or a space ship.  This ship started making its way to that faraway pinpoint of light that I noticed at the beginning of my launch.  We were headed to that 9^th dimensional stargate and passing through dimensions 5 through 8 on our way.  Fascinating, as this was a new twist on the graduation scenario!

As I have written before, the center of out Milky Way Galaxy is a very busy place.  It is here where patterning is installed for those who are on their way down the dimensional scale to experiences in the lower dimensions, and knowledge and experience is harvested from those who have completed and are on their way back out of the dimensional system.  This is all for the growth and enhancement of the whole of our universal experience. 

In the post on the “Seed of the Mother”, I wrote about how the soul of our Earth Mother received her seed of knowledge on how to embody a planet. The reverse will also be happening when she gets back inside that stargate.  Her information and experiences will be harvested and she will move on to another endeavor.

Our information will be harvested, too, and then we will have the choice to receive another assignment and drop down through the dimensional scale to have another experience elsewhere, or to continue up the scale to exit this universe.  We will then find ourselves floating free in the multiverse where many universes coexist.  The choice will be made to jump into one of those other universes or continue on up back to the Source of All.  Except for a bit of coming and going to assist in the transformation process here on the planet, I will be exiting our universe at that time.  At least that is how it looks right now. 

This morning, I chose to do a second launching during which I went back into the Stargate Milky Way and asked to receive a good scrubbing of any energy that needed to go.  This is something that anyone can do at any time.  Any way in which you can lighten your load is a good thing!  The other members of the launching group all experienced some sort of healing or cleansing today, too. 

The process that I have described here is a sort of mapping the path for others to follow.  Not everyone will take this path however, as we all have our specific destinations that may not be the same as I have described.  Nevertheless, we all will be exiting this universe at some point to continue our journeys back to the Source of All. One of your jobs is to have your awareness fully activated so that you do not get entrapped unnecessarily on any of the dramas and traumas at play in the 4th dimension. 

The Painter

For the past several weeks, I have had workmen here repairing and fixing up the exterior of my house.  First it was a crew of 3 guys replacing old siding and building a new deck.  They were professional, eager to please, and very nice to work with.  No complaints there.  After them came the painter who repainted the whole house.  This is someone that the remodeling crew recommended and had worked with in the past.  I thought, OK, as that would save me the trouble of finding my own painter. 

Unfortunately, when he finished up I was busy with a client, so I just handed him a check for the balance of the work and went back to my client.  Later in the day, I took a walk around the house to look things over and found several things amiss, the biggest of which was his failure to fill in the nail holes from the new siding before he painted the house.  It looked like someone had shot the house with a BB gun! 

Well, that ticked me off as this guy was generally nice but kind of a whiner and I thought I was done with him at last.  Being attentive to my inner process, this was the first indication that I needed to do some work on myself.  A negative emotional response to any situation always points the way for this. 

After I calmed down a bit, my own mental looping started up.  Do I express my complaints and risk hurting his feelings?  Do I ignore the situation and just hope that the siding does not suffer further damage because of all of the tiny holes?  If I do that, do I get pissed off again every time I look at it, and angry at myself because I wasn’t able to resolve the situation?  Most importantly, why was I conflicted and looping?  Certainly there was a correct path to follow here, but I couldn’t discern it.

Then it hit me.  I had reverted back to a childhood pattern of reaction to my mother.  Wow!!  When will I be done with that one?  Certainly a lot went on in my childhood, but the aspect of it all that reared its ugly head a few days ago was the result of being raised by a mother who had the expectation that her children could be molded to fit her image of what they should be like without any regard to them as individuals with their own gifts and talents.  People in general were never good enough unless they met all of her criteria.  If they did not, a whole host of energetic attack was likely to break out.  As a result, I became extremely shy and stressed as a child, whereas my sister took the opposite mode as a rebel and somewhat of a trouble maker.  Both ends of the polarity spectrum there! 

So the looping was a result of not being empowered as a child to be my own person no matter what that looked like.  Believe me, that had been a life long struggle until I got divorced and started to reclaim my autonomy as an individual.  I was honestly confused as to how to proceed.  This was the point when I reassured my inner child that everything was going to be OK and then went within for guidance.  “Man up” I told myself, and I gave the painter a call. 

Not the response I was hoping for, as he indicated that my complaints were somewhat nonsensical and that he also would not be able to come out any time soon to correct them.  He was not as accommodating as the remodeling crew was!  On to plan B, but not before the looping started up again. 

What do I do now?  Again more confusion and worrying about hurting his feelings.  I then again engaged my inner child, settled her down and reassured her that it would be safe for her if I stepped up and took the next step.  The next morning I went into my bank and stopped payment on the check that I had given the painter the day before.  An extreme measure for me, as this was the first time in my life that I had to do that because I was dissatisfied with the service rendered.  OK!  I could feel the childhood patterns of caving in to a more dominant “mother” force reversing themselves while at the same time, the feelings of greater certainty and autonomy were growing within me. 

After that, there was no problem calling the painter and telling him that I had stopped the check and that he wouldn’t get paid until the job was done correctly.  He showed up that very afternoon and started filling in the many tiny holes in the siding.  Nothing like withholding money to get the job moving along!  Of course, I could tell by his mopey demeanor that I had become his over critical mommy, but that is his deal.  It’s always interesting to see that in any interaction between 2 people, the unhealed aspects, especially from childhood, can rear up to be dealt with. 

My hope is that everyone reading this can see how issues that have triggered an out of balance emotional response can be resolved by first noticing the emotional triggers, then going within to contact and work with the wounded part that is generating the distorted emotional response, and then taking some sort of action that is directed by higher guidance to empower and move you forward in the healing process.  It was no accident that I attracted that specific painter who made those specific errors to show me something about myself.  I also have every confidence that the painting job will be finished to my satisfaction.  Thank you Mr. Painter! 

Spiritual Bypassing

Spiritual Bypassing is a term coined by psychologist John Welwood in 1984.  In a nutshell, it is defined as the use of spiritual beliefs and practices to avoid dealing with life’s painful feelings and unresolved wounds.  In other words, it is a practice that many spiritual seekers use to avoid creating and maintaining that oh so important deep connection with their inner self because it is too painful or distressing to do so.  It could also be a matter of one’s spiritual ego telling them that this deep kind of work is not necessary to their spiritual progress, and to focus on higher concepts and theoretical ideas instead. 

I am writing about this today because I have had a few clients this year who have been using spiritual bypassing in their own evolutionary process, to the detriment of their own healing.  As those of you who have worked with me know, each client needs to have an issue to work with during a healing session.  By this I mean something that is current and real, and something that they are investing in changing.     For most people, there is so much going on in their lives that coming up with something is not a problem. 

For just a few others, they are so disconnected from their deep inner self that it has been next to impossible to elicit any kind of workable issue from them at the start of their session.  I hear things like “I want you to pull me out of the synthetic matrix”, “MKUltra is after me and sabotaging my dreams”, “If you can just help me connect to my Higher Self, my life would be perfect”, “I think that XYZ spiritual group did something to me 10 years ago, but I don’t know what it was, and I want it fixed.”   It has been difficult at times for me to try to pull these clients back to some sort of everyday reality that we can work with.  The best issues are always practical, current and distressing.

In addition to expressing these not so practical issues, these clients are very much in their heads and not very well grounded or connected to their bodies.  Having a mental understanding of an issue is necessary most of the time, but the aspects that get left out are the emotional and physical body reactions.   Your body is your barometer and if you are getting either emotional signals or body sensations that are not the norm for you, it is trying desperately to get your attention about something.  If you are not grounded and in your body, you will miss these signals.  On top of that, you won’t be able to use this very important body mechanism to point the way for your healing. 

When I get a client who has these difficulties, they do what I call “spinning” when trying to nail down something that I can work with in a session.  They bounce from mental concept to mental concept, all the while failing to make any kind of connection with their deep distress.  By sticking with a concept that is more theoretical, they avoid feeling the feelings that are being generated by the buried an unhealed aspects of their lives.  Last week I had to stop a session with a client 20 minutes into the intake interview because of the spinning.  Usually, I can verbally lead them to something fruitful to work on, but not this time. 

So here is a little story to explain what I am talking about.  You are out on the ocean in a small sailboat and pull into a cove for the night.  You drop your anchor, and it gets imbedded in the deep muddy muck of the ocean floor.  In the morning, when it is time for you to pull up your anchor and set sail, you find that it is still stuck in the muck.  What to do?  Being a lazy kind of sailor, you simply cut the anchor rope and get on your way, forgetting all about the anchor you left behind.  Come evening, you find another cozy cove to spend the night in and suddenly realize that you have no anchor and must remain adrift during the night.  In addition to that, you have to stay awake to watch for any dangers that come your way. 

The next morning, you are determined to go back to the place where you cut loose your anchor and retrieve it.  You dive down to the ocean floor and attach a new rope to the anchor.  After much struggle and strain, you are successful in bringing your anchor to the surface and into your boat.  Whew!!!  If only you had put that kind of effort into it the first time around!  Lesson learned.

Your anchor rope represents your connection to the realm of your unresolved issues, in other words, your shadow self.  The anchor is what keeps you embedded in that muck and mire for as long as it exists in the shadowy depths.  Freeing yourself from that mess requires engagement, determination and lots of hard work.  There are no shortcuts.  By cutting that rope, you float off and remain adrift.  You have avoided the work of engagement and healing for something that appears to be more pleasant in the short term, but the unresolved issue with the anchor will come back to haunt you again and again until it is resolved. 

There is a positive side to all of this.  Each time you dig in, more of the muck gets cleared away, and the whole process becomes much easier.  If you use spiritual bypassing as an avoidance strategy, you just drift on forever.  The anchor stuck in the muck will remain there until you double back to retrieve it. 

There is a fine art to the introspection and inner connection that is required for true healing and evolution.  For some this comes easier than for others, but for none is it impossible.  It is always a pleasure for me to work with someone who has taken the time to go within and examine their issues before a session.  It makes the whole process more worthwhile for both the client and me.