Between June of 2010 and November of 2013 I attended 8
workshops at TMI. I can honestly say that
I would not be where I am today either energetically or professionally if I had
not taken those classes. I am eternally
grateful and will always hold my time there with mostly fond regard. Unfortunately, my sojourn there ended on a
very sour note and I will not be going back.
It is also important to note that in the time I was studying there, TMI
had 4 different executive directors.
That fact figures prominently in the following story, which is the back
story of how I created the Quantum Sphere Healing process.
I won’t repeat how I actually created this amazing healing
process, but you can read about it here.
In March of 2012, I took Skip Atwater’s workshop entitled Explorer Imperative,
which featured the SAM™ Technology (Spatial Angle Modulation™). I was blown away, and can honestly say that this
was probably the best class that I had taken at TMI up to that point. When I got home, I got right to work and created
the QSH course exclusively for TMI. It
was clear that they would need a follow up workshop that used the SAM™ Technology.
So this is where the goofiness started. I pitched the course to Skip who immediately
passed me along to the director at the time, Carol. I
e-mailed the course outline, mailed it snail mail, and finally got to talk to her
in person that July. She was very
excited about the course, but informed me that the SAM™ Technology needed more
work and all classes using it were being suspended. She would let me know as things progressed. Skip Atwater also retired several months
after that.
OK, I thought. I
would proceed on my own, not being willing to wait and let this amazing process
die on the vine. I reworked the course
outline for a 3 day class instead of TMI’s 6 day format and started teaching
it. I also solicited from my client base
at the time people who were willing to fill out a survey on their results after
trying out the QSH. Except for 1 or 2
clients, all were extremely satisfied with the healing work. So I knew that it worked.
Fast forward a year later to July of 2013. The director that I had pitched the class to
died unexpectedly. Quite a tragedy for TMI,
as Carol was a well loved individual. One
of the board members at the time, Walter, stepped up to take the director’s
job. I was going to be at TMI that
September to take a workshop, and even though I didn’t have any hope that they
would pick up the class at that point, I thought I’d pitch it to the new
director anyway. Wow! Big surprise here, as Walter was so much more
than enthusiastic about bringing QSH to the Institute. As it turned out in retrospect, his
enthusiasm was for me, and not the course, if you know what I mean.
I did not want his personal feelings for me to get in the
way of this project, so shortly after I got home, I used the QSH process to do
a person to person karma clearing between us.
It worked in a backwards sort of way.
His enthusiasm for me went away, and at the same time, it seemed to wane
for the course, too. Nevertheless, I went
back to TMI in November of 2013 to take the updated version of the Explorer Imperative
class, pitched the course to Bob, who had taken over Skip’s job, and we were
off and running. We were talking
contracts, sound tracks, voice overs, and which of the trainers would be a good
pairing for assisting me with the sound technology during the workshops. If you were one of my “test” subjects for the
QSH surveys, you might remember receiving an e-mail from around that time me
thanking you for your contribution to this whole effort. Walter had even announced the new QSH workshop
the 2 classes that I took that fall.
Unfortunately, my favorite TMI facilitator started giving me
a really hard time about teaching there, and attempted to drag other facilitators
into that drama. I think that I had unwittingly
gotten involved in some complaints that she had about the way that Walter was running
things. The final straw was when Walter
suddenly quit as director right after Thanksgiving. A year
ago, I pitched the course for a 5th time to the new director, but there
was no follow up on her part, so the whole thing was dropped.
Enough waa waa waa!
After working with my friend this week, I realized that I had to go
through the “Calling Back Your Parts” exercise on my own self! It has been a year since that last pitch, and
I was still wondering how my life would be right now if everything had gone as
planned. Of course, this past year has
been wonderful, and I wouldn’t change a thing, but I realized that a major
clean up was in order.
I called back any aspect of myself related to each specific
workshop that I had taken, every facilitator, especially from the one whom I
had admired so much and had given me such a hard time, all the students in
those workshops, the buildings where the workshops had taken place, the wonderful
countryside around TMI and all of the hiking that I had done in the area, the food,
the dining rooms and even the airport in Charlottesville! Add to that all of the directors, Skip, the
office staff, and any other related person that I met while there. Sometimes you just don’t realize the extent
of the entanglement until you get right down to working on it. I had also been thinking about writing about
this entanglement for the past several months, as a sort of closure process,
but just didn’t know how to approach it until now.
In spite of this long winded story, I hope that you can take
away the basics of the calling yourself back process. Perhaps you have been entangled in a similar situation
from your past that you would like to clean up.
The key here is if you are still thinking about the “what if’s” of your
former involvement. Do you yearn for
something that you didn’t get? Do anniversary’s
come and go with memories of the past? Do
you feel that you lost a part of yourself to a certain group? Whatever your former situation, you can call
your parts back and be more present in your now moment as of today. Go for it!
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